-- yukiko_first_love -- Full Metal Alchemist

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I always lend my ear to other and listen to what they are saying yet there is still no one listening to me.... why is this happening..... the problems come from me or them .... Every time when i tried to say somethings ..... people either cut it off or after i said it .... they won't believe till other people say the same things as me ... why is this happening .... I HATE ALL THIS KIND OF PERSON .....

to Sebrina, Andrew, Alex and Lian Jye
this few days i was saying about birber and malay Birber.... i just telling them what i know and they said that what i'm telling is all lies..... all this things i said of cause i got the infor but still they don't believe in me .... fuck to all this people .... who do they think they are .... they just don't know anything and believe is what they see ,.... they never even think about what others feel and said this people are liers and so on...

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 11:10 AM

why is no one listening to me

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 11:10 AM Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Tired and i want to play Maple

OMG i miss playing maple so much.... When ever my friends was saying about maple... it makes me feel like playing it .... but right now i had my project that need to done... it carry most of my mark.... i don't even think i'm able to finish it.... i guees i won't be able to get a A or B grades but C or D.... i really fell that i'm very hope less in it .... So wish that we could finish school as soon as possible as i really miss playing maple so much .....

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 4:08 PM Wednesday, September 06, 2006

go to the place where you are welcome

I'm someone who likes to go over to places where i will be welcome rather then placese who i don't like...... I can't understand why people is forcing me to go over to their place where i got to see people i don't like...... I got my own way of thinking things so stop forcing me...... I hate to go school is because of my classmate...... when ever i told them the things i wanted to do...... they won't even support me and don't say about school project...... To them... i'm only someone who is useless that's all...... CCA...... forget about it.... all of them says that i'm childrish so just be it...... anyway wat is their mean of childrish....... don't say other people unless you know one.... I don't understand why my friends always like to take Starbuck to compare with CCA or even class friends....... at less i know that at Starbuck.... i'm having fun and they make me feel welcome rather in school nor CCA.....

When ever i have a problem... who am i going to trush and tell them my problem...... if i were to tell them...... will they keep it to themself or wat....... the only way i really can forget my problem is when i' drinking....... so what is so big about friends....... if you were to break the law of friendship which is ...

1st trush each other
never tell other people their securtes
share information
if there is anything happen, tell each other
no betray of friends
listen to what each has to say
do things together
never ever talk bad staff behind each other
being buyer's to people you both hate
don't last mins say that you are not going to do things together

currenily this were be all my list of friendship....... more will be added but maybe next time when i'm free....... I will never tell someone my problems to anyone of this people not even my family if they did something hurtful to me once....... once is more then enough...... there is this words saying that..... (1st time you trick me is your fault but if it were to happen 2nd times, it's going to my fault because i make a mistake of falling into your trap again) things will not going to happen 2times anymore......

to tell the ture...... i rather believe in what i see rather then what people tell..... there is this word saying that (life is like a tea bag, people may say that it's a bad tea nor a good one but you will never know unless you were to try the bad tea yourself..... that's what people is) there is also this saying that (people will always tell you what is it from the outside but you will never knew what inside is unless you see it yourself) why people has to always be like this...... i hate Justin some time it's because of this reason....... he told me to be careful of Wei Hao because he went to steal Eddie girl but what i see is the girl got it's own right to choose who to be with...... if were to like Eddie in the first place.... why would she choose Wei Hao at the end...... don't you think that it's very stupid to think that guy toke your girl so you must becareful of him.......

i guess it's time for me to have some sleep...... i'm so tired already.......

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 10:25 PM Saturday, July 15, 2006

too many faces i know about friends

Now a days i'm too scared to know all the friend i use to know... Even if that person is someone i use to trush... I use to believe that if i were to do something nice to other's... they would sure one day do something back to repay what you have did/ done... but things did not went what i through... they wounld just forgot what you have did like drinking water from a cup...

last week 7July was my boyfriend 20th birthday... every time when there is someone birthday or anything... we would just come out some money to buy gift/ cake for that person... What we gave was like water... it will never come back like what it was when you give it out... Even if it were to come back... it won't be as clean as what we give but dirty water that they give out unwilling.... Is that what friends are for... every time when some one birthday cames... Justin and i will try to find time for to help they celebrate their birthday even if we are not free or having exams that day... Even if we got no money... we still came for them... But when it comes to our's... they just come out and meet us unwilling and not even a cake for us... i'm very sad about what i see in front of me... This is when i knew about them.... being friends it just only making use of each other like wearing a mask... without knowing what time or when they would pok you behind...
*the friend i said was so one both of us knew from CCA/ school/ work*

To tell the true... i already knew all this will happen one day... that is why i keep telling myself that if i were to buy present to a friend on their birthday... i must check weather they did buy anything for me during my birthday... unless that person is someone i don't wish to forget/ bestfriend/ boyfriend... i won't buy for that personu if they don't trasure me as a human... I'm not a dog nor a cat... you can't just ask me to go away if you never tell me why/ what happen... unless i don't feel welcome... i will leave with out telling goodbye... if you were a true friend... just come and find me like i'm in a dark room... if you are willing to look for me... i will be there anytime and maybe beside you waiting for that hand... same thing goes as if you want to find me because some one ask you to do it... i will still stay beside you waiting for you to know weather i'm there or not...

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 12:28 PM Monday, May 29, 2006

Long time no see and now i'm back

Hmmm... how long has it been since the last time i have come into a blogging section... this fews months i have being busy with so many staff like... project...stupid friends... work which i like the best and so many staff... Finnally i can have some time with my blogging ... I'm so angry now and i would like to write my angle down now...

You guys know that i like monkey so much till i can fall for it so much... HOw come you guys still want to steal away from me... I hate people who steal my staff or even ideas... can't you all find something that you all like yourself and stop copying me... I hate to share my staff with other people and you guys know it better then me... when that things is my i will keep it till i throw it away...

this is always something i always hated it a lot ... just don't wish to say it but some time... a hidden person inside me is telling me to do this... FUCK YOU La... you guys don't even know about me ... how can you guys just throw me 1 side like this... IF you gus don't like me can just say it... even time you all went out of having outing... you guys never even tell me or even say something... you guys just hide it behind me then even say bad things behind me... If you guys are my sister... you all don't need to hide it from me and best... stop acting big... Since you guys are doing it... i'm going to get my revange and now... i will make my plan work inother to cool myself down from all this stupid staff you guys did to me ... i will not hide anymore...

After so many things has happen... i found out true friends is what thing and i won' t tell myself to find any true friends... I will just only find friend which friends i don't tell my staff to... Now the you guys has already make me very disspointed so much that i feel like kill you or even push you down to hell...

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 12:09 PM Thursday, March 09, 2006

Stress-Friendship-work-study-CCA

I'm so funcking stress now a day... stress about friendship, work, studys and CCA. 1st lets talk about friendship...

Friendship...This few days... i don't know izzit i'm the 1 who is changing or izzit Lian Jye they all... Now a day lian jye Rena they are doing a new project about video... but what happen is that when we went to ask what they are doing... they don't even wanted to tell us.... and they started to give me a very fuck up att... like my last project is about radio talk show... they don't even give a den to me as now they are in a new group ... who cares about if the job done or wat .... end up... i'm doing everything for them... how can they do this to do ... like i'm the 1 who make all this trouble... in the first place... who is the 1 telling me Rena will do all the editing .... i leave all the job to her but end up.... i'm the 1 doing it.... from nw on... i don't think i will trust Lian Jye or Rena anymore because from what they done to me...

Work & Study....this few days i have so many project and studys to do that i don't even have time for work... like this year ... Everyday after i have reach home is to study and study do project non-stop.... i'm so fucking stress up .... by even thing ... i don't think i can make it ... if i don't work... i won't have any money to spent or even go out .... i guess it is time that i ask mum for money coz if this goes on ... i think i'm going to die soon ....

CCA... IVP is coming soon .... my team mate is Su Yu, Eddie, Candy and me .... the first few weeks... Candy did not came don't 4 training which make us need to train ourself and we can't even learn our timming ..... after i talk to Candy that since i can give up working and come down 4 training ... why can't her just do it like me .... next is Eddie ... the pass 2 weeks ... i don't know what has happen to Eddie ... all of a sudden he don't even listen to what we say ... after that went it comes to training ... he keep on having mistake which make me very angry .... like yesterday .... when we ask him to follow us ... the next min he went to do something else .... after that when we call out loud for him .... he become very angry ... i was there thinking ... since he wanted to join IVP .. then why can't he just put in all his affort like us .... candy is now willing to give up on job .... Su Yu came down even through she is out of ITE and jobless.... i know that Fiona likes Eddie but Eddie don't know do he wants to accpect her a not .... but can't he just put down love for a while .... i just don't know why can't people just give up on all personal things and work hard for IVP ....

Right now ... i'm so them fucking stress up that i was thinking of dieing ... i'm a person who can't take too much stress .... if i take too much .... i will just 1 day become very very crazy that no 1 can stop me.... when i'm angry ... better don't play with me ... i don't care who you are and i will just punch u up if u make me angry ......

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 10:05 PM Friday, February 17, 2006

$ MONEY $

This few days i keep on asking myself not to spent money in school but if there is a need, i only can spent $2.... someone ask me this question why am i'm saving so much money even if my bank got $2k.... well i'm saving so much money is because i wanted to move out of my house when i'm 21years old.... I don't want to depend on other's as i don't think i need anyone of them.... i hate people who don't work for themself but keep on asking other's for help .... here is something i know..... If u keep on depend on ur father mother for mother to spent everyday.... what if this will to happen that ur mother and father die.... no one will be giving you money n how do u going to life......

yukiko_first_love [Hagane no Renkinjutsushi] 9:30 AM